30/7/18 this feeling sucks & what if i

forget to wash my facial mask off currently listening to: Flaws - LEW just how many days before it comes? just how many days before it reaches? just how many days before it connects? just how many days before i feel? yearning aches and fogs the wait is dreadful and mocks the sombreness i feel…

4/07/18 this came out as i was moving

don't hold back the night darling i may lose you please don't check the time maybe i'll adore you and if it's all true, i will be just right there thinking of you. so darling please, just let this be and maybe maybe you'll learn something bout me

17/03/18 about last friday…

moving, moving feet trembling knees shaking heart beating your first passion never leaves until it is consumed... euphoria, true bliss as i close my eyes and thank God that i can keep moving, moving    

26/01/18 cabin door

a stab to the heel a pinch to the ear a slap to the chest; all the mind's thinking as i lay my head to rest.   to be making better use of my time, should not be limited to just; to be using my time is to be using my time away your pessimistic…

2017

when i look back at the year, i see tears rolling down my eyes. i taste bread and coconut. i hear injustice and compassion. i feel lost, at peace, fuelled with adrenaline. it's been emotional definitely, one hell of a year fo sure. school was pretty tough and there had been sooo many times i felt…

09/11/17 to be a giant baby

currently playing: The Weekend by SZA this time i want to be a giant baby. paired with big brown curious eyes, full rosy cheeks and a wide, genuine, smile i will giggle at the sight of the majestic mountains surrounding me. which one first? i pick a side, the left, then start rolling. rolling, rolling,…

06/10/17 as a matter of fact quite numb

currently playing: Run It Up by Coast Modern   my head hurts so as to speak, my mind weak and the weather ever so bleak; emotionless, bare, lacking content as i nod towards your wonderful suggestions of keeping up to date and having a good mate; i don't know what's gone up to me, hah, do i…

30/09/17 physics is stressing me out hence this

currently playing: The Other Side of Paradise by Glass Animals media, a fool a platform for physical exploitation, hunger, productivity, or lack thereof unwise bastard it is. for i think, most certainly, i know better than that, i deserve better than that, i crave better than that than that - a short-term guard against realness,…

21/09/17 the time has finally come, yet i still feel unsettled

currently playing: atlas drowned by gang of youths exposed and vulnerable, as i lay there bare body, open wounds and mouth agape. in denial, unsure who's at fault or whether there was even space for anyone to be blamed. it has been settled, but i still lay there weak as i think about how everything…

8/09/17 fookin’-

currently playing: Treat Me Like Somebody - Tink the smell of roses, my racing mind, and you entwined like a beautiful melody in my heart. i fall further, deeper, faster pulling each thread tighter, making sure you won't let go. silly me! why would i think so? full of closed ears and useless fears i…